Why Chastity?
Why Chastity? This is one question I receive a lot, and like "why crossdressing?", there's not one simple answer.
Unlike many, dressing and chastity aren't something that was forced on me, or even suggested to me. They're both things I've started on my own... Crossdressing at a very young age due to gender identity issues, and chastity much later in life.
I suppose my curiosity towards chastity started with seeing other gurls online with locked cocks in these strange little devices. The idea intrigue me. So much so that I quickly ordered one for myself. I remember like yesterday locking myself in it for the first time. I was so excited, so nervous. I remained locked for a few hours, then removed the device before heading home.
I self-locked like this for a number of years. Always while at work. I loved the feeling, loved the delicious torture. The chastity device would both force me to forget my cock was there, while at the same time it was a constant reminder of who I was.
For me, locking myself in chastity was a way to lock away the very thing that defined me as male. I could lock away my masculinity. Not get rid of it entirely (I don't want that), but just lock it away for a period of time. I could deny myself of traditional male pleasure, and instead focus on other aspect of my sexuality and identity.
About 2 years ago I asked my wife to become my Goddess and keyholder. She was apprehensive at first... I had only just recently fully disclosed my dressing to her. But she was accepting. She also doesn't fully understand why I'd want to do this, but she's OK with it anyway. She's not very dominant by nature, but she's at least attempting to take a dominant role in my chastity. She's played a little with tease & denial, but she wants my cock too much to leave it locked for very long.
So now I'm locked 24/7, at my Keyholder's discretion. I'm allowed out for daily cleaning and shaving, but not much otherwise. She lets me out for sex at times of her choosing, but I'm not allowed to pleasure myself any longer.
Sex while locked in chastity adds a whole new dimension, one I'll touch on in a future post.
Thanks for reading, and don't be afraid to comment or follow. :)
Unlike many, dressing and chastity aren't something that was forced on me, or even suggested to me. They're both things I've started on my own... Crossdressing at a very young age due to gender identity issues, and chastity much later in life.
I self-locked like this for a number of years. Always while at work. I loved the feeling, loved the delicious torture. The chastity device would both force me to forget my cock was there, while at the same time it was a constant reminder of who I was.
For me, locking myself in chastity was a way to lock away the very thing that defined me as male. I could lock away my masculinity. Not get rid of it entirely (I don't want that), but just lock it away for a period of time. I could deny myself of traditional male pleasure, and instead focus on other aspect of my sexuality and identity.
About 2 years ago I asked my wife to become my Goddess and keyholder. She was apprehensive at first... I had only just recently fully disclosed my dressing to her. But she was accepting. She also doesn't fully understand why I'd want to do this, but she's OK with it anyway. She's not very dominant by nature, but she's at least attempting to take a dominant role in my chastity. She's played a little with tease & denial, but she wants my cock too much to leave it locked for very long.
Sex while locked in chastity adds a whole new dimension, one I'll touch on in a future post.
Thanks for reading, and don't be afraid to comment or follow. :)
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